Kanato's apartment had never felt this quiet.
The door clicked shut behind Kuzuha, and the sound seemed to echo through the living room like a stone dropped into still water. He stood frozen in the entryway, his hand still on the handle, watching the scene in front of him with a growing unease that had nothing to do with the tournament they'd just won.
Kanato sat on the leather couch, slumped back until his head rested against the top of the cushion, one arm thrown over his face to block the yellow glare of the single lamp. The rough concrete floor caught the light in uneven patches, and on the low table in front of him, two manila folders lay open like wounds. Kuzuha could see the edge of a photograph—a thin arm, a hospital bracelet, the clinical grid of a medical bed.
"Kanato!" Rou's voice cut through the heavy air, bright and unbothered as he stepped past Kuzuha, kicking off his shoes with practiced ease. "We brought food. And beer. And—" He stopped mid-sentence, his eyes landing on the files. "Hey. You okay?"
Kanato didn't move his arm from his face. "Been better."
Lauren followed Rou inside, his usual playful demeanor flickering as he took in the room. His gaze swept from Kanato's slumped posture to the files, then to the kitchen counter where a half-empty glass of whiskey sat untouched. He set down the bag of takeout he was carrying and crossed his arms, leaning against the wall.
"We won," he said slowly, "and you look like we lost."
"We did win." Kanato's voice was flat, muffled behind his arm. "Congratulations. We're the best Valorant players in this part of Tokyo. Party's in the living room."
Sho was the last to enter, slipping past Kuzuha with the quiet grace of someone who'd learned to read a room before speaking. He set his bag on the counter beside Lauren's, then walked to the edge of the couch and looked down at the files. His sharp eyes moved over the visible pages—medical charts, drug schedules, a photograph of a child with hollow eyes.
"The check-up results," Sho said. It wasn't a question.
Kanato's hand shifted, fingers pressing harder against his eyes. "Arata sent them this morning. Full blood work, organ scans, the whole package." He let out a breath that was almost a laugh. "I've been sitting here for three hours trying to open the file."
"Three hours?" Kuzuha finally stepped away from the door, moving to stand beside the couch. He kept his voice careful, measured. "You haven't read it yet?"
"Read the first page. Got to the drug toxicity panel and closed it." Kanato's arm dropped, and he stared at the ceiling, his amber eyes flat and tired. "I can't—" He stopped. Swallowed. "I can't do it alone."
The words hung in the air, raw and honest in a way that Kanato rarely let himself be. Kuzuha felt something shift in his chest—a quiet recognition of the weight Kanato had been carrying, alone, for days now.
Rou was the first to move. He walked to the couch and dropped onto the cushion beside Kanato, close enough that their shoulders almost touched. "Then we read it together." He said it simply, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "You're not alone, Kanato-san. You never were."
Kuzuha caught the echo of Sho's note—the same words, from a different conversation, a different night. He watched Kanato's jaw tighten, watched the crack appear in the easy composure that Kanato wore like armor.
Kanato looked at Rou, then at Kuzuha, then at Lauren and Sho. His voice was rough when he spoke. "You don't have to—"
"We know." Lauren pushed off from the wall and walked to the table, looking down at the files. "But we're offering. And you never accept help, Kanato. So if you're actually considering it, you must be drowning."
Kanato's laugh was short and bitter. "That obvious?"
"You look like shit," Sho said, his soft voice delivering the words like a blade wrapped in silk. "And you're not hiding it. That's how we know it's bad."
Kuzuha moved to the armchair across from the couch, settling into it with the careful stillness of someone who didn't want to spook a wounded animal. He waited until Kanato met his eyes before speaking.
"There's something else." It wasn't a question. "You're not just scared of the medical report."
Kanato held his gaze for a long moment. Then he reached down and pulled the second folder from beneath the first—a manila envelope, yellowed at the edges, thick with papers. He set it on the table with a thud that seemed too heavy for its size.
"Arata sent Akira's old file too." Kanato's voice was quiet. "From SPIA."
The room went still.
Kuzuha felt his stomach tighten. He remembered the hunger wave, the way Akira had screamed, the way Kanato had held him like he was something precious. He remembered the bruises, the scars, the way Akira flinched at sudden movements. He remembered the file—the one Seraph had torn pages from, the one that contained decades of abuse condensed into clinical language.
"Kanato." Lauren's voice had lost its playfulness. "That's—that's Voltaction business. We're not—"
"I know." Kanato sat up slowly, rubbing his face with both hands. "But Akira already gave permission. He told me to let the people who matter read it." He let out a breath. "He said—he said he was tired of hiding. Tired of being ashamed of things that weren't his fault."
Kuzuha watched Kanato's hands tremble, just slightly, before he pressed them flat against his thighs.
"I've read it," Kanato continued. "I know what's in there. And I swear to god, if I had known what they did to him—what they did to him for twenty years—I would have burned that entire organization to the ground before I ever met him." His voice cracked on the last word, and he looked away, blinking hard. "But I didn't know. And now I do. And I can't un-know it. And I need—"
He stopped. Took a breath. Started again.
"I need you to understand. All of you. Because you're going to see him at parties, at events, on stream, and you're going to see the mask he wears. And I need you to know what's underneath it, so that when he slips—when he breaks—you'll know why. You'll know how to catch him."
Kuzuha's throat felt tight. He looked at the folder on the table—at the yellowed edges, the typewritten labels, the clinical horror contained in paper and ink.
"You want us to read it," Kuzuha said slowly. "The whole thing."
Kanato nodded. "But I'm warning you. It's not pretty. It's never going to be pretty. And once you read it, you can't un-read it." He looked up, meeting each of their eyes in turn. "So if anyone wants to leave, do it now. No hard feelings. I'll have food sent to your place."
No one moved.
Rou reached out and put a hand on Kanato's shoulder. "We're staying."
Lauren walked to the kitchen and returned with the bottle of whiskey and four glasses. He set them on the table beside the files. "If we're doing this, we're doing it right."
Sho pulled the armchair closer to the couch, crossing his legs and folding his hands in his lap. His soft voice was steady. "Start from the beginning."
Kuzuha leaned forward, his elbows on his knees, his eyes fixed on the folder. He could see the edge of a photograph—a child, maybe four years old, with dark hair and empty eyes. The name 'Ren' was written on the corner in faded ink.
Kanato reached for the folder, his fingers brushing the yellowed paper. Then he stopped. "I can't—" He swallowed. "I can't read it again. Not tonight."
"Then I'll read it." Rou's voice was gentle, but firm. He reached for the folder, his hand hovering over it. "Tell me when to stop."
Kanato nodded, his jaw tight.
Rou pulled the folder onto his lap and opened it. The first page was thin, the paper brittle with age. A photograph was clipped to the top—a child with dark hair and dark eyes, maybe three years old, wearing a plain gray shirt. The label beneath it read: 'Specimen #17 - Shikinagi Ren - Acquired at 3y 6m.'
The room was silent.
Rou's voice was quiet as he began to read. "Acquired from biological parents. Transaction recorded: ¥2,000,000. No further contact with genetic donors recorded." He paused, his brow furrowing. "He was three. They sold him for two million yen."
Kuzuha felt the words settle in his chest like stones. He thought of Akira—the way he laughed during streams, the way he teased Rou, the way he leaned into Kanato's touch like he was starving for it. He thought of the boy in the photograph, three years old, purchased like livestock.
Rou turned the page. "Physical conditioning began at age four. Daily caloric intake regulated to maintain optimal combat weight. Sleep deprivation protocols introduced at age five to increase operational efficiency." His voice was flat, clinical, echoing the tone of the document. "Obedience training: age six. Resistance to authority punished by isolation and sensory deprivation."
Lauren picked up his glass and drank, his face unreadable.
"Academic training: age four to seven. Languages, mathematics, political science, social engineering." Rou's fingers traced the page. "He was fluent in four languages by age seven."
"Akira?" Sho's voice was soft, almost distant. "He speaks Japanese, English, and—"
"Mandarin and Russian." Kanato's voice was rough. "He hides it. Doesn't want to seem like he's showing off."
Kuzuha stared at the folder. A child, four years old, learning four languages while being starved and sleep-deprived into compliance. He thought of his own childhood—video games, school, friends. Normal. Safe. The contrast made him feel sick.
Rou turned another page, and his hand stilled. "Shit."
"What?" Lauren leaned forward.
Rou didn't answer. He just stared at the page, his face pale.
Kuzuha stood and walked around the couch to look over Rou's shoulder. The page was dense with text—clinical notes, drug names, dosage schedules. But what caught his eye was the age notation at the top: 'Subject age: 8 years, 2 months.'
"Drug and sexual conditioning," Rou read aloud, his voice barely above a whisper. "Initiated. Protocol A-7. Stimulant introduction: gradual. Desensitization to touch: daily. Aversion to refusal: reinforced through negative stimulus." He stopped, his hand pressing flat against the page. "He was eight. Eight years old."
Kuzuha felt something cold settle in his gut. He thought of Akira's flinch at sudden movements, the way he froze when someone touched him without warning. He thought of the choker at the costume fitting, the way Akira had dissociated, the way Seraph had held him.
He thought of a child, eight years old, being taught that his body was not his own.
Rou turned the page. Then the next. Then the next. Each one seemed to drain color from his face. Lauren refilled his glass. Sho sat motionless, his eyes fixed on the pages as if he could burn them with his gaze.
"Missions start at age eleven," Rou said. "Small at first. Information gathering. Surveillance. Then—" He paused, scanning the page. "Then at age thirteen, the first honey trap assignment. The conditioning intensifies."
Kuzuha's hands were shaking. He pressed them flat against his thighs to still them. "They sent a child on seduction missions."
"Phrased differently in the file," Rou said, his voice hollow. "But yes."
Kanato hadn't moved. He sat with his elbows on his knees, his head bowed, his hands clasped together. His shoulders were rigid, a wire pulled too tight.
Lauren set down his glass with a clink. "There's more, isn't there?"
Rou nodded. He turned the page, and his breath caught. "There's a note here. About—about when they paired him with Seraph."
Kuzuha's attention sharpened. "Seraph?"
"Akira was twelve. Seraph was eleven." Rou's voice was steady, but his hands were trembling. "Seraph's file is attached—notes about his psychological state. Depressed. Grieving. His family died in an accident, and he ended up on the street before SPIA found him."
Rou looked up, his eyes meeting Kuzuha's. "The file says Seraph was uncooperative with the training program. Violent. Refusing to eat. They paired him with Akira as a last resort."
Sho's soft voice cut through the silence. "And?"
"And it worked." Rou's voice cracked. "Akira—he took care of him. Made sure he ate. Patched his wounds. Hid his performance enhancers and took double doses so Seraph wouldn't have to." He stared at the page, his expression shifting from shock to something deeper, rawer. "There's a note from a handler. It says: 'Specimen #17's condition has stabilized since cohabitation with Specimen #34. Suggest maintaining arrangement for operational efficiency.'"
The words hung in the air like smoke. Operational efficiency. Two children, holding each other together in a system designed to break them.
Kuzuha thought of the butterfly tattoo on Seraph's arm. He thought of Kanato's story—Akira drawing butterflies on eleven-year-old Seraph's skin, covering the cuts, hiding the evidence of pain. He thought of Seraph's quiet devotion, the way he looked at Akira like he was the only thing in the world worth protecting.
He understood, now, why Seraph would burn the world for Akira. Because Akira had held him together when he was falling apart.
"The file says they were roommates," Rou continued, his voice quieter now. "For years. Until the missions separated them. But every time Akira came back from a honey trap, they'd put him in a recovery room, and Seraph would be there. The handler notes say Akira recovered faster when Seraph was present."
Lauren's voice was rough. "They used their relationship to optimize his recovery. To send him back out faster."
Rou nodded.
The silence that followed was suffocating.
Kuzuha thought of Akira's laugh—genuine, warm, the one that came out when he was genuinely happy during a stream. He thought of the way Akira teased Rou, the way he gently corrected Sho's Japanese, the way he made everyone around him feel seen. He thought of the mask Akira wore every single day, the mask that had been forged in a childhood of pain and conditioning.
And he thought of the child in the photograph—three years old, sold for two million yen, raised to be a weapon and a tool and a body for others to use.
"I need a minute." Kuzuha stood abruptly, walking to the kitchen. He gripped the edge of the counter, his knuckles white, and stared at the window. The city lights blurred through the glass.
He heard Sho's voice behind him, soft and careful. "How much more is there?"
Rou's reply was quiet. "A lot."
"Then let's keep going." Sho's voice didn't waver. "Akira trusted us with this. The least we can do is honor that trust by knowing the full truth."
Kuzuha took a breath. Then another. He turned and walked back to the couch, settling into his seat with a new resolve. "Keep reading."
Rou looked at Kanato, who gave a small, almost imperceptible nod.
Rou turned the page.

