The walk back is a funeral march across hot flagstones. My suitcase, a battered vintage trunk covered in peeling travel stickers, feels absurdly loud as I drag it over the gravel. The guest house door is closed. I stare at it, my hand hovering over the knob. This is his territory now, too. The thought is a small, hot coal in my chest. I take a deep breath, push inside, and am immediately met with a wall of cool, conditioned air and the faint, clean scent of bergamot. Earl Grey. Of course.
He’s in the small kitchenette, his back to me, pouring boiling water into a ceramic pot. He’s wearing a crisp, pale blue Oxford shirt now, the sleeves rolled precisely to his elbows. The muscles in his forearms cord with the simple motion. The shirt is tucked into dark trousers. He looks like he’s about to give a lecture on moral philosophy, not share a living space with a naked intruder. The silence stretches, thick enough to slice. He doesn’t turn. “Your room is the one on the left,” he says, his voice calm, measured. “I’ve taken the liberty of removing my running shoes from the common area. I trust that meets with your approval.”
I drag my suitcase past him without a word. The wheels make a terrible, grinding racket over the tile, a sound of pure protest. I feel his eyes on my back, a cool, assessing pressure between my shoulder blades. My room. The one on the left. He’s giving me directions in my own space. The coal in my chest flares into a proper flame.
“I’m familiar with the floor plan,” I say, not turning around. My voice comes out clipped, matching his. I stop at the door, fumbling with the handle. It’s stubborn. Of course it is. The universe is a petty, literal-minded stage manager. “I’ve been coming here since Amelia bought this place. I helped her pick out the throw pillows.”
Behind me, I hear the soft clink of a teaspoon against ceramic. “A vital contribution to the structural integrity of the building, I’m sure.”
I finally shove the door open. The room is exactly as I left it six months ago, a time capsule of my last visit. A stack of poetry collections on the nightstand, a silk scarf draped over the lamp to soften the light. It smells faintly of dust and my old perfume. A sanctuary. Now it feels like a cell. I haul my trunk over the threshold, the weight of it a satisfying thud. I turn. He’s still at the counter, steeping his tea, a portrait of unflappable calm. It’s infuriating. “Do you always make a pot just for yourself? Or is this a special ‘I’ve been visually assaulted’ blend?”
He lifts the pot, pours a single, precise cup. The steam curls up, framing his sharp profile. “It’s a customary beverage. Not a coping mechanism. Though I’ll admit, the afternoon has been… illustrative.” He takes a sip, his eyes meeting mine over the rim. They are a shocking, clear blue. The color of a glacier, or a swimming pool on a postcard. Something meant to be looked at, not swum in. “Your sister mentioned you were spirited. She undersold it.”
“And Arthur mentioned you were a prick. He oversold your charm.” The words are out before I can think, a knee-jerk flare of heat. I see it land—a tiny, almost imperceptible tightening at the corner of his mouth. Not a flinch. More like a scientist noting an unexpected data point. It’s worse than if he’d gotten angry. My own face burns. I cross my arms over my chest, the silk of the kimono suddenly feeling insubstantial. “Look. This is stupid. We’re adults. We can share a kitchen without a formal treaty. Just… stay on your side of the line. I’ll stay on mine.”
“A sensible proposal.” He sets his cup down. “My ‘side,’ for the record, extends to the refrigerator shelves I’ve designated for my groceries, and the Tuesday/Thursday use of the washing machine. I’ve drafted a schedule.”
I stare at him. He’s not joking. He’s actually not joking. A laugh bubbles up in my throat, half-hysterical. “A schedule. For the washing machine. Is there a sign-up sheet for the shower, too? Should I pencil myself in for ‘naked and inconvenient’ again, or was that a one-time performance?”
For the first time, something flickers in those blue eyes. Not humor, exactly. A crackle of something sharper. “The shower is first-come, first-served. Though a knock, prior to entry, is considered standard practice in most shared dwellings. Even in California, I’d wager.”
“I didn’t know I needed to knock to enter my own house!”
“It’s not your house.” He says it quietly, evenly. A simple statement of fact. It hits me like a slap. “It’s your sister’s guest house. Which she has graciously allowed me to occupy. Your unexpected arrival creates a complication, not an abdication of my tenancy.”
The truth of it is a cold stone in my gut. He’s right. I am the complication. The feral cat who’s wandered into the meticulously ordered garden. I have nowhere else to go. The wildfire smoke might as well still be in my lungs. I lean against the doorframe, the fight draining out of me again, leaving a hollow, shaky feeling. “Fine,” I whisper. “Tuesdays and Thursdays are all yours. I’ll wash my unmentionables under the cover of darkness on Wednesdays. Will that satisfy the terms of your armistice?”
He studies me for a long moment. His gaze isn’t cruel. It’s… analytical. Taking in the defeated slump of my shoulders, the way my fingers pluck at the silk of my sleeve. He sees it all. “It’s a provisional agreement,” he says finally. His voice is lower now, less clipped. “Subject to renegotiation. If you find your… unmentionables… require a more urgent timeline.”
A startled breath escapes me. Was that…? No. It couldn’t be. Dry British humor, not a double entendre. I push off the doorframe, retreating into the safety of my room. “Don’t worry, Professor. I’ll keep my chaos contained to my designated area.”
“See that you do,” he says, and turns back to his tea. The conversation is over. Dismissed. I close the door softly, leaning my forehead against the cool wood. Outside, I hear the quiet, domestic sounds of him cleaning his cup. The run of water. The click of a cabinet. A world of order, just on the other side of this door. My heart is pounding a frantic, irregular rhythm against my ribs. It wasn’t just the argument. It was the attention. The way he looked at me, even when he was putting me in my place. Like I was a text he was trying to decipher. A complicated, frustrating, possibly illicit sonnet. And for one terrifying second, I wanted him to keep reading.
The silence on my side of the door feels like a held breath. I shuck off the kimono, a puddle of silk on the floor, and rifle through my trunk. I pull on a pair of cut-off jean shorts, the frayed edges brushing high on my thighs, and a loose, white crop top that leaves a strip of my stomach bare. No bra. No underwear. A small, silent rebellion against the scheduled, sanitized world outside my room. I pad back out into the living area.
Sebastian is gone, the kitchenette spotless. The only evidence of him is the faint, lingering scent of bergamot and the oppressive sense of order. I collapse onto the large, cream-colored sofa, the leather cool against the back of my legs, and grab the remote. The television blares to life with some inane home renovation show. The volume is a weapon. I crank it up, letting the cheerful host’s voice about shiplap and open-concept living flood the space. I tuck my feet under me, the empty screen a perfect mirror of my own mind.
My phone vibrates on the cushion beside me. LACEY. I snatch it up. “Tell me you have cocaine and a time machine,” I say by way of hello.
“Better,” Lacey’s voice is a sunny, static-filled shout. She’s probably driving with the top down. “I have two of the hottest tourists I have ever seen in my entire life. Australian. Surfers. Or maybe rugby players? Honestly, Immy, the accents alone could melt your pants off. They’re at The Pony Trap tonight. You are coming. No fires, no excuses.”
I can feel it—a shift in the atmosphere. A creak of floorboard from down the hall. The volume of the TV suddenly feels performative. I lower my voice, turning slightly into the couch. “Lacey, I can’t. I’m in a… shared living situation. It’s complicated.”
“Shared with who? Did Amelia get a cat? Bring him. These boys love animals.”
“Not a cat. A person. A British person. He’s… here.” I don’t know why I’m whispering. It makes it feel more illicit.
“Ooh, a roommate! Is he hot?”
My eyes dart toward the hallway. It’s empty. “He’s a professor. He has a washing machine schedule.”
“So that’s a yes. Bring him too! We’ll make it a cultural exchange. I’ll be there at nine. Wear the black dress. The one with the neckline that says ‘I’m fun but I have daddy issues.’” She hangs up before I can protest.
I drop the phone into my lap. The cheerful TV couple are now arguing over quartz versus marble countertops. I mute them. The sudden quiet is a vacuum, and into it steps Sebastian. He’s in the hallway doorway, leaning a shoulder against the frame, a hardcover book in one hand. He’s changed into grey sweatpants and a simple black t-shirt that stretches across his chest. The casualness is a shock. It’s more intimate than the Oxford shirt. “Australians,” he says, his tone flat. “A bold choice. They’re known for their conversational depth.”
Heat floods my face. He heard everything. Of course he did. “Eavesdropping is considered poor form in most shared dwellings. Even in England, I’d wager.”
“It was unavoidable. Your friend projects like a West End actress.” He glances down at his book, then back at me. His gaze is a physical touch, sweeping from my bare feet, up my legs, over the exposed strip of my stomach, to the thin cotton of my top. It’s that same analytical stare, but in the muted evening light, it feels slower. Heavier. “I take it your ‘designated area’ has expanded to include the common sofa.”
“It’s Tuesday. Isn’t that your day to… alphabetize the spice rack?” I pull my knees up to my chest, a feeble attempt at cover. “And the sofa is common ground. Neutral territory.”
“Indeed.” He pushes off the doorframe and walks toward the small bookshelf. He slots his book neatly between two others. The motion makes the fabric of his sweatpants pull across his thighs. He doesn’t look at me as he speaks. “The Pony Trap is a twenty-minute drive. The clientele is predominantly undergraduate. The beer is cheap and suspect. I’d advise against the well whiskey.”
I stare at his back. “How do you know that?”
“Faculty orientation. They provide a map of establishments to… observe from a distance.” He turns, leaning against the bookshelf now, crossing his arms. The position broadens his shoulders. “Your sister would prefer you didn’t go.”
“My sister isn’t my warden. And you’re not my hall monitor.” The words are defiance, but my voice is thinner than I want it to be. He’s looking at me again, and the space between us feels charged, like the air before a lightning strike. He’s not telling me not to go. He’s just… stating facts. It’s infuriating. “What, are you going to tattle on me?”
A faint, almost imperceptible smile touches his lips. It’s gone in a blink. “I have a seminar to prepare for. And a washing machine schedule to uphold. Your nocturnal adventures are of no academic interest to me.” He pushes off the shelf and walks toward the hallway to his room. He pauses at his door, hand on the knob. Without looking back, he says, “The black dress, however, is a sound strategic selection. For the stated objective.”
My breath catches. The door clicks shut behind him. I sit frozen on the sofa, the ghost of his words hanging in the quiet room. He’d been listening that closely. He’d heard Lacey’s description. He’d looked at me, in my shorts and crop top, and pictured the black dress. The one with the neckline. A hot, confusing shiver works its way down my spine. It wasn’t disapproval. It was… assessment. And for the second time today, under the cool, analytical sweep of his attention, I feel utterly, dangerously seen.

