Summer Chaos
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Chapter 25
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Chapter 25

we say our goodnights and walk back the dark path we came from leading to our rooms. Instead of following him through the court yard, I turn and head to the beach, i sit and watch the waves. I'm feeling so drawn to him that guilt is finally hitting me. mark. In just two days I've forgotten all about my devoting loving consistent boyfriend.

The goodnights are a pantomime of cheek kisses and light laughter that dissolves the second we step onto the dark, shell-strewn path leading back to the villas. The torchlight from the dinner table fades, replaced by the weak silver of a half-moon.

Amelia and Arthur turn left toward the main house.

Sebastian’s broad shoulder is a dark shape beside me, his silence a familiar weight. We take five steps in sync before the path forks: right to the courtyard and our adjacent doors, straight ahead down a narrow set of wooden stairs to the beach.

I don’t hesitate.

I break stride and go straight, my sandals clicking on the weathered steps.

I don’t look back.

I just walk until the cool, damp sand sucks at my heels, then I sink down, folding my legs under me. The ocean is a vast, breathing blackness edged with foaming white. I watch it, trying to match my breath to the slow pull and crash.

It doesn’t work.

My mind is a riot.

His fingertips. The exact, searing heat of them on my wrist, a brand through the silk of my sleeve. The way his blue eyes held mine, not like he was seeing a performance, but like he was reading the messy, handwritten draft beneath.

Two days. It’s been two days since I’ve arrived in this paradise, and I have not thought of Mark. Not once. The realization hits me like a physical sickness, a cold twist deep in my gut. My devoted, consistent, loving boyfriend. I left his cheerful “miss you!” text on read this morning.

The sand shifts beside me, a quiet disturbance in the dark.

I don’t need to look.

The heat of him radiates through the cool night air, a solid, silent presence settling at my side. Sebastian doesn’t speak. He just stretches his long legs out in front of him, forearms resting on his knees, and gazes at the same black water.

My guilt is a living, squirming thing in my chest, but I shove it down, deep. I don’t mention Mark. I don’t mention choices. I just want to exist here, in this breath, where the only sound is the ocean and the only light is the faint silver catching the damp curve of his lower lip.

“It’s quieter here,” he says after a moment, his voice low, blending with the rush of the waves.

“Everyone’s gone. It’s just the two villains and the sea.” The attempt at a joke falls flat, my words thin and brittle.

He turns his head, and I feel the weight of his look before I meet it. The moonlight etches the severe line of his jaw, softens the usual precision in his blue eyes. “I told you. There are no villains.”

“Then what are we?” The question escapes, smaller than I intended.

He’s quiet for so long I think he won’t answer. Then, softly, “People on a beach.”

It’s the simplicity of it that undoes me. My complicated, twisting guilt, my dramatic crisis—all of it reduces to this: a man and a woman on a dark beach. The realization is a physical release, a softening in my shoulders I didn’t know I was holding. I let out a breath I’ve been clutching for hours.

“People on a beach,” I echo, testing the sound of it. It feels true.

His hand moves then, not toward me, but to the sand between us. He traces an idle, meaningless pattern with his fingertips. I watch the movement, mesmerized by the contrast of his sun-gilded skin against the dark, granular world. The air between us changes. It thickens, grows warm. The space from his thigh to mine, maybe six inches of sand, feels like a canyon and a hair’s breadth all at once. My skin hums with awareness. This is the moment I wanted. Just this. The almost of him.

“Imogen.” My name in his mouth is different tonight. Not a correction. Not a warning. A quiet acknowledgment, like he’s naming something he sees clearly for the first time.

“Yes?”

“Look at me.”

I do. Slowly. The night paints him in shades of charcoal and silver, highlighting the broad planes of his chest under his thin linen shirt, the intense focus of his gaze. He’s not smiling, but the rigid control from the dinner table is gone. In its place is a patient, devastating attention. It’s worse. It’s better. I feel utterly transparent and completely seen.

His traced pattern in the sand stops.

I close the distance and kiss him. It’s not a dramatic, cinematic swoop. It’s a surrender. My mouth finds his in the dark, a soft, searching press that tastes of salt and the faint, clean sharpness of gin. For a heartbeat, he is utterly still, a statue in the moonlight. Then his hand comes up, his fingers sliding into the hair at my nape, holding me with a certainty that makes my breath catch. His other hand finds the bare skin of my waist between my green silk bikini top and the low tie of my wrap skirt, his touch searing. He kisses me back, not with hunger, but with a deep, thorough attention, as if he’s learning the shape of a hypothesis he’s been testing for days.

My mind, for once, is silent. There is no performance, no audience, no guilt. There is only the warm, firm pressure of his lips, the scratch of his late-day stubble against my skin, the solid wall of his chest under my palms. I make a small, helpless sound in the back of my throat, and his grip on my hair tightens, just enough to tip my head back. He breaks the kiss, his breath a warm gust against my wet lips. His blue eyes are black in the low light, searching my face. “Imogen.”

“People on a beach,” I whisper, the words ragged. It’s an explanation, a permission, a plea.

“Yes,” he says, and his voice is rough velvet. He doesn’t kiss me again. Instead, he rests his forehead against mine, our breaths mingling, his thumb stroking a slow, devastating arc on my jaw. “Just that.” The canyon of sand between us is gone. My thigh is pressed against his, the heat of him a brand through our clothes. I can feel the rapid, heavy thud of his heart where my hand rests on his chest. It matches mine. This proper, ordered man is as undone as I am.

“This is a terrible idea,” I murmur, not moving an inch.

“Abysmal.” His agreement is immediate, dry. His thumb stills on my jaw. “Do you want to stop?”

The question hangs in the salt-thick air. It’s the out. The return to propriety, to the path to our separate doors, to the unread text from Mark. I look at his mouth, at the slight, damp swell of his lower lip from our kiss. I think of his fingertips on my wrist, a silent claim in a crowded room. “No,” I say, the word final.

“Do you?”

His answer is another kiss. This one is not soft or searching. It is deep and claiming, a slow, deliberate conquest of my mouth that leaves no room for doubt or guilt. His tongue slides against mine, and a bolt of pure, sharp desire arcs straight down my spine, settling as a throbbing ache between my legs. I clutch at his shirt, the linen now rough under my fingers, and he groans, a low, vibrating sound I feel in my own bones. When he pulls back, his breathing is uneven.

“Then we,” he says, each word measured, “will be terrible together.”

The decision is a physical thing.

I shift my weight, my wrap skirt loosening as I swing one leg over his, settling into his lap in the damp sand. The heat of him beneath me is instantaneous, solid. His hands come to my bare hips, his fingers pressing into the softness there. I kiss him again, deep and hungry, and when I feel the slight, surrendering part of his lips, I catch his lower lip between my teeth. A gentle tug, a silent claim. His breath hitches, a sharp intake I feel in my own chest. Then I’m pushing off, scrambling to my feet, the cool night air hitting my skin where his body was.

“Imogen.” My name is half-groan, half-warning, rough and unraveled.

I don’t answer.

I just run.